I was taught this for panic attacks, except it’s hard to remember what to do when in the midst of a panic attack. Then I’d just get a bit distracted trying to remember which sense came next, mission failed successfully?

This was in January of 2023, right when chat gpt was becoming popular. So it’s possible, but I think it was just a crappy therapist, it was free through my employee benefits. ~6 sessions per year were free, I never used any more, found a real therapist.

Inside every man are two wolves…

Not even kidding. I had a therapist tell me this story once. I promptly found a new therapist.

Proxies. I have several full decks that are all fake cards printed from high quality proxy printing sites, ~$30-40 per 100 card commander deck, not sure how tariffs changed the cost, haven’t ordered recently, but it was not a US based site. Obviously not legal in competitive play, but I only play casual amongst friends

Oh hey, I do all of these on a regular basis. And regularly got in trouble as a kid for being forgetful, despite the fact that I was a smart kid with good grades. Maybe I should talk to a doc…

Ok that’s a new one, never heard of a butt clench back pop.

I can do pretty much every joint aside from hips and elbows. The loudest are my messed up shoulders from when I used to swim competitively. I’ve had multiple doctors tell me it’s the loudest shoulder pop they’ve ever heard.

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Fair. I’m the only one that uses my jellyfin server. It’s usually streaming to my local TV, or laptop if I’m traveling. Working on a portable mini lab right now too, travel router + raspberry pi

Yea, I should’ve clarified, was just throwing out a simple option if anyone hadn’t heard of that yet, it was easier than setting up openvpn or something on my router. You can also self host Headscale on your machine if you want to have more control over it.

I use tailscale for accessing my home network remotely, it was a super easy setup

Whoops, you’re right. I was thinking of proxmox, used to run that for a bit too

Yea I’m running a much leaner Debian on my laptop now. Base OS was very bare, slowly adding only what I need because it’s a 2016 laptop and noticeably slower on some more bloated OSs

Whatever Ubuntu was available in 2015. I only dabbled in Linux over the past 10 years. More seriously switching over in the last year or so.

I have Unraid as a server OS (Debian slackware based, running a lot of docker containers and a couple VMs). Debian on my laptop. And Bazzite (fedora based) on my Lenovo Legion Go.

Still need to swap my gaming PC from windows. May try Bazzite on that as well. I’ve also tried Mint, Manjaro, and Zorin

I was not aware of this… Thanks for the heads up. The only device I have dual booting right now is just my Lenovo Legion Go, handheld gaming. Split windows and Bazzite (fedora based)

Guess it’s time to wipe the windows. I haven’t even used it that much

Nice! Congrats my dude. Would’ve been closer to the same day but someone gave me a bottle of whiskey for Christmas that year and I hadn’t told anyone I was trying to quit yet

Not sure. I’ve never really reflected on that idea. It certainly seems to be true for me personally.

My alcoholic years had some pretty ugly parts and could have killed me several times. Severe depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, wrecked my car (thankful it was just me and a steep curb, no one else involved, that could have been so much worse), a hospital trip, walking 2 miles home by myself at 3am almost every weekend while hammered in the middle of a US city known for its crime and lowkey wanting someone to try to mug me, etc. Let alone the physical damage that 50-100+ standard drinks per week at my worst was doing to my body, luckily none of that seems to be permanent, I was scared to get my blood work done for the first year alcohol free, but it came back fine.

I don’t like looking back on that period of my life, but I’ve come to terms with the fact that it happened and I can’t change that and mostly been able to forgive myself.

So while it was ugly and could have killed me, shit at parts of it I wanted it to kill me, at the same time… I wouldn’t be who I am today without all that (and a lot of therapy and self reflection and journaling and all that fun stuff). I really genuinely like who I am today. I haven’t been able to say that for the majority of my life. And I find a lot more appreciation in the little things that I used to be too numb to see. I’m doing things I enjoy solely because I enjoy them, not because my family or parts of society say it’s what I’m supposed to be doing.

I don’t think I want that statement to be true for humanity as a whole, at least not in the way that I faced my mortality, I hope there are other ways people can get to a point where they feel truly alive. But yea I think it’s true for me.

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Heck yea! Walking around the block is where I started again a couple years ago. It’s definitely worth sticking with it. Life got in the way a few times and I had to be gentle with myself and repeatedly remind myself that progress isn’t linear, and that doing something is better than nothing.

Thanks :) I don’t really talk about my sobriety with a ton of people in person, still some shame associated with who I used to be, appreciate being able to share online.

And yea exercise in various forms is one of my big things now, definitely relatable, I try not to be preachy about it. Lifting, swimming, and rollerblading recently. I need to do more yoga though… I’m in wayyyy better shape than I was two years ago, feeling almost as good as my college athlete days.

Some actress with boobs. I know her from White Lotus. No idea on the ending wokeness part because I don’t follow the lives of celebrities outside of checking IMDB to see what else they’ve been in.

Edit: I tried to look into it a bit. Something about the fact that a conventionally attractive young woman with nice breasts is gaining popularity means it’s an end to all the body positivity and other wokeness? Idk, I’m not doing more than 5 minutes of looking into it

I also saw that her grandma has seen her nude scenes and said “she has the best tits in Hollywood” and that’s just hilarious