Unrelated rant don’t read this. I used to wish someone shot up my school, it would have made all of the staff (yes, every last one) look stupid for overlooking all the actually human students and searching me like I was guaranteed to be a shooter. Seriously, they’d open my laptop and remove the battery to ensure there’s no weapon hidden in it, open my 3DS and remove the cartridge and stylus, take the case off my phone, look inside my hat or unfold my beanie, run a metal detector all over me for like 10 minutes, then run it on my devices and whatever accessories I wore, then take each individual item out my bag and run a metal detector over it.
Seriously, every day I’d be held up for at least 20 minutes because security needs to search my notebooks and pencil case (the latter had a metal zipper which they had to triple check so I just gave up on Having My Pens In A Case) and then empty my wallet and search all over it. As if I magically put a gun in my cardholder wallet that had only, you guessed it, cards. Because a stupid puzzle piece made me a terrorist. Right.
When I had less things with me, that was scary because of that stupid fucking puzzle piece. I stopped eating lunch at school because I was tired of having my lunch box searched by ten separate people every day. But of course that stupid puzzle piece is why I don’t eat at school anymore. I used to play smash 3DS with others but I stopped bringing my 3DS, now I sit alone, and that’s scary, must be that stupid ass puzzle piece that made me a loner, and of course The Quiet Kid is Always The Shooter! Ugh.
So I used to envy those who were actually involved in a shooting, as fucked up as that is.
Sounds like school shootings fucked you up, that’s no reason to feel shame, but don’t let it control you. If it’s breaking your brain then honestly seek help. If you can’t afford help, then talk to me.
I’m sorry you’ve been made to feel this way, but there are always people who care. Help us move the needle so other people dont have to feel what you did <3
Unrelated rant don’t read this. I used to wish someone shot up my school, it would have made all of the staff (yes, every last one) look stupid for overlooking all the actually human students and searching me like I was guaranteed to be a shooter. Seriously, they’d open my laptop and remove the battery to ensure there’s no weapon hidden in it, open my 3DS and remove the cartridge and stylus, take the case off my phone, look inside my hat or unfold my beanie, run a metal detector all over me for like 10 minutes, then run it on my devices and whatever accessories I wore, then take each individual item out my bag and run a metal detector over it.
Seriously, every day I’d be held up for at least 20 minutes because security needs to search my notebooks and pencil case (the latter had a metal zipper which they had to triple check so I just gave up on Having My Pens In A Case) and then empty my wallet and search all over it. As if I magically put a gun in my cardholder wallet that had only, you guessed it, cards. Because a stupid puzzle piece made me a terrorist. Right.
When I had less things with me, that was scary because of that stupid fucking puzzle piece. I stopped eating lunch at school because I was tired of having my lunch box searched by ten separate people every day. But of course that stupid puzzle piece is why I don’t eat at school anymore. I used to play smash 3DS with others but I stopped bringing my 3DS, now I sit alone, and that’s scary, must be that stupid ass puzzle piece that made me a loner, and of course The Quiet Kid is Always The Shooter! Ugh.
So I used to envy those who were actually involved in a shooting, as fucked up as that is.
Going through TSA everyday to get an education is wild
Sounds like school shootings fucked you up, that’s no reason to feel shame, but don’t let it control you. If it’s breaking your brain then honestly seek help. If you can’t afford help, then talk to me.
I’m sorry you’ve been made to feel this way, but there are always people who care. Help us move the needle so other people dont have to feel what you did <3
Sounds like the police state is the problem not school shootings.
“It became necessary to destroy the students to save them.”